Success, fail and what's inbetween

I learned that if it’s not a success, it might not be a fail either”

Ö till Ö coming up was special for us. Big expectations upon our shoulders. Built by our smashing win last year and our incredible high ambitions and set goal for this year. Within this, it's important to keep it real. Keep it fun and not stumble on the feeling that this is something you have to do. And so far for me I was on the success road. I was looking forward to this day, I felt like it was gona be a fantastic day on the course and that it was a day filled with opportunities. Not sh*t I was nervous, but controlled and happy.

Photo: Henrik Kindgren

Photo: Henrik Kindgren

Biggest issue was my left ankle that I sprained really bad just a week before race. With Monday and Tuesday on crutches, it seemed unlikely me being other place than the couch for some time to come. But with some magic I got good enough to give it a try. And actually this took some toughs away from the scary things that otherwise would have ended up in my head. 

One of my favorite moments of the course is the first swim, the big day is setting off, the sun is coming up and the power is filling me. This year we were off with a rough start, fighting for water to swim in with a bunch of other teams. What? Why? Last year you were all off to the far left, go there again, don't go straight. We got a bad feeling. Coming out of the water far behind what we anticipated we put the focus ahead and started chasing. All the way to Nämndö we were up and down battling with a big group of teams with different strengths and super powers. In my head the biggest battle were taking place. Trying to keep focus ahead, but with no goal to fight for. Titel? Podium? Finishing? What was possible from this position? Just keep fighting, knowing that it's a long day and the only way is to keep a high pace going on.

Photo: Henrik Kindgren

Photo: Henrik Kindgren

Going up at (or against maybe?!) the big run at Ornö we had already made contact with the 3d team passing them on land and being overtaken again in the water. We could smell them, almost. Wetsuits pealed down, without a word both me and Staffan knew. We're in it to win it. We could have played it cool and smart, that would have been the thing to do. Secure the 3d. But naaa, we toke a high shot and got speedy. Ornö takes and Ornö gives, reaching water at the south end we were 2d. At this point last year I got filled with the feeling "We got this, control it from here!" But being here in this position is not new to me either, I've been 2d here before too. This two different scenarios makes different kind of impact on the level of smashness you experience after finishing, my legs could tell you a little story about that.

Crossing the finish line of a long race, a race that you prepared for a long time will be emotional in some way. And this was an all in one mix of everything. Deep disappointment, proud of fighting back, happy with the podium, sad for the missed win and lost record. 

Photo Ö till Ö

Photo Ö till Ö

Was this a fail? At Nämndö I was thinking that. But it's not! And we made it become different. But to reach a success it takes more, and I guess it's rare. But hey I learned that if it's not a success, it might not be a fail either. It can be good performance, even great. And solid. And to be clear, I'm happy with what we did and with the podium. The winners where simply to strong this day, impressive performance by Eva and Adriel.

Thanks for the greatest support and believing in us, Head Swimming Nordic and Apollo Sports. Thanks family and friends for all the love and positivity your throwing our way. 

 

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